Erin Andrews' surrogate had a miscarriage with her second child, the sportscaster revealed during an episode of her podcast on Thursday, confessing that it made her “feel like a failure.”
“We got some real s---ty news today that our surrogate had miscarried,” Andrews shared, choking up, on “Calm Down With Erin and Charissa.”
The 47-year-old NFL sideline reporter previously lost twins via surrogacy before the birth of her son, but was optimistic about this most recent surrogate pregnancy.
“Her little heartbeat and her numbers were really good — so much so I even told you guys a couple weeks ago because we thought we had such good news,” Andrews said.
Andrews gave kudos to producer Ryan Musick, who joined her on the episode while co-host and fellow sportscaster Charissa Thompson was away.
“I've been trying really hard to pay attention, I've just been tearing up the whole time,” Andrews said.
Andrews, mom to 2-year-old Mack with husband Jarret Stoll, said she originally did not want to do the episode, but reflected on how the podcast has been a safe space for her over the years, from her experience with cervical cancer to infertility issues.
Andrews opened up that she often suppresses her feelings through work and acknowledged she will have to process the emotions of this loss, noting that last time she did not and “suffered with it.”
The Taylor Swift song “I Can Do It With a Broken Heart” came to Andrews’ mind during the podcast, with Andrews saying she is “really good at doing this s--- with a broken heart.”
Musick told Andrews they could push back taping the podcast if she was not feeling up to it, the co-host said, but she made a promise to herself to be honest with listeners about her infertility and surrogacy journey.
“This really, really sucks, but so many people are dealing with it, so if you feel alone and you feel like a failure, I do too,” Andrews said. “But you’re not the only one.”
Andrews said Stoll is also having a difficult time with the loss, and that she would be going home after taping the episode to be with him and play with their son in the pool.
“I feel like squeezes are going to feel a little different from him today,” Andrews said.
